Do Or Die Artwork

 

Yvonne Gordon Moser

Praying Girl on Poppies


I looked around the locked psych ward I was in at Silver Hills hospital wondering... “How the hell after sixteen years of sobriety did I wind up here?" I didn’t want to drink or drug but I wanted to die. I believed the world would be better without me. I was literally losing my mind. I was scared and feeling desperately alone. I worried I might never be able to live in the world again.

One day, sitting silently in the community room with my roommate, I started ripping, tearing, crumpling strips of paper from magazines and arranging them on the table surface. I asked the nurse behind the protective glass for art materials, but all she could give me was a wry smile, some plastic child safety scissors and a glue stick. I completed two mosaics with those torn bits of paper and while I was creating, I forgot everything. Creating art takes me out of myself and I feel a connection to something good, mystical, even divine. I had also gathered six other patients to create art with me before I was discharged. I believe we were healing together.

Ripping those pages into little pieces, and then piecing them back together allowed me to rewrite my story, my future, changing it from something traumatic into something with hope. Creating art literally kept me alive and gave me a purpose. I learned a lot about my own depression and mental illness. I also realized that my love of art was more than just a hobby, it had always and would continue to keep me alive. I went on to get my Master’s degree in Art Therapy and founded the Branford Art Center and YGM Wellness LLC in Branford, CT. I also wrote “Shattered,” a book about my experience. I currently facilitate a home meditation and art studio. My hope is that every healing learning space carries art materials. They can work magic.

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12”x12”x1.5”

Encaustic painting on Ampersand Encaustic Board

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